Sometimes I feel invisible. It seems like I'm watching life unfold around me, but I'm not an active participant, and I'm unseen. Sometimes these moments are awesome. I can sit back and people watch, or I can listen quietly to conversations I'm not part of; not to eaves drop, but to just hear the murmur … Continue reading Seen



Nobody likes pain, well unless they're...uh...into that sort of thing. That's not the kind of pain I'm talking about though, or into for that matter. Just saying... The kind of pain nobody likes is the kind that burns its way through you. It saps all of your energy, and it rips you apart. It brings … Continue reading Suffer


There are few things I love more than learning. There's a deliciously simple pleasure in getting those light bulb moments when a new understanding illuminates your mind. Equally amazing is the opportunity to see those moments happen for others. I had the privilege of teaching a Bible study to some youth tonight. I was absolutely … Continue reading Spark


Twenty days. That's how long I have until I'm legally a free woman. I never wanted my life to end up in this place. I never thought the word 'divorced' would apply to me, yet here I am. I'm staring down the this new reality as if I'm looking into the barrel of a loaded … Continue reading T-20


Tonight is one of those nights where existence feels too difficult. The word 'can't' plays over and over in my mind. It's become my mantra. Effort carries a crushing weight that is unbearable. I've hit a wall, and it's knocked the wind out of me. I can't handle the thought of living this thing called … Continue reading Wall